*'s Consort

If I were rich I'd live alone. I wouldn't have a boyfriend. I wouldn't have pets. I think when you're poor you need people more. but there's very little I like about having close connections with people, except money and conversation.

After work today I just felt like being alone so I wandered around the grocery store for half an hour before going home. we needed eggs anyways. My boyfriend had made me dinner which was nice, but he was in a down mood and went to bed, so now I'm a bit drunk and have a cold and also in a down mood.

My life seems like a series of photos all of the same subject, all the same. I want to take the camera and move it. Take it outside my house and outside the Starbucks, take some new photos.

The temptation is to break up with my boyfriend and travel for a year. I bet Starbucks would let me, if I got a travel visa somewhere. But I could also just take my money and spend it all, travel around Europe for six months and Asia for another six. not worry about a job or school or people. I'd probably have a breakdown.

i probably just need a new job. But even that would only satisfy me for a few months. Once I'm good at things I get board. I can't allow myself to be good at things.

that's it for tonight I guess.